Crossroads

Where does my heart beat now? Where does silent hearts go?
I'm listening to Celine Dion's 'Where does my heart beat now?' with tears in my eyes..Today I got some very promising news; it's something I've wanted for the past year.

You can say that things are looking up for me and slowly falling into place. The place that I want it to be and have longed hope for it to be but somehow I feel this tinge of sadness in my heart.

I know this sounds really crazy but I have mixed feelings. I don't know why I have these mixed feelings. I wish it would just go away and my decision will be so much easier.

Maybe I'm not as prepared as I would like to be. I've wanted this all year but somehow in my heart, perhaps I thought I'll never get it so I wasn't prepare for it to actually happen.

If I take the right path, this could be a very good thing.

Or it could end up very ugly, too. What do I do?

As I'm thinking of this, I read Paulo Coelho's blog and come across something very appropriate; perhaps written for someone like me. It seems like a sign for me.

Coelho has a very interesting thought in his blog:
The challenge will not wait. Life does not look back. A week is more than enough time for us to decide whether or not to accept our destiny.