My beautiful soul

I thought of you with love today
But that is nothing new,
I thought about you yesterday
And days before that too.
I think of you in silence
...I often speak your name,
Now all I have are memories
And a picture of you in a my heart.
Some may think you are forgotten
Though on earth you are no more,
But in our memory you are with me
As you always were before.
A million times I've thought of you
A million times I've cried,
If loving could have saved you
You would have never died.
You left us all with such beautiful memories
Your love is still our guide,
And though I cannot see you
You are always at my side.
It broke my heart to lose you
But you did not go alone,
Part of me went with you
On the day God called you home.
Forgive me Lord, I'll always weep
For the beautiful soul I loved, but could not keep.

I miss you so much that it hurts and I think of you & what could have been, R.

Art

I believe that some of the most beautiful things are done with passion in the heart and expression of feelings. Like Art. I absolutely love Art. Sometimes I wish I was talented in art but I am not. I was not given that gift. But I'm given the gift of appreciation for everything artsy.

'Dangerous Men'

The first person one must learn to love is oneself. If you do not love yourself, and by that is meant respect and esteem for your own self, you will not be able to love anyone else.

I'm reminded of this story I recently came across in this book I'm reading...

Tears glistened in the eyes of Salvation Army officer Shaw as he looked at the three men before him. Shaw was a medical missionary who had just arrived in India.
It was the turn of the century, and the Salvation Army was taking over the care of the leper colony.

But these three lepers had manacles and fetters binding their hands and feet, cutting the diseased flesh. Captain Shaw turned to the guard and said, 'Please unfasten the chains'.

'It isn't safe,' the guard replied. 'These men are dangerous criminals as well as lepers.'
'I'll be responsible. They're suffering enough,' Captain Shaw said, as he put out his hand and took the keys. Then he knelt on the ground, tenderly removed the shackles and treated their bleeding ankles.

About two weeks later Captain Shaw had his first misgivings about freeing the criminals. He has to make an overnight trip and dreaded leaving his wife and child alone.

But his wife was also a Salvation Army officer whose life was dedicated to God. She insisted that she was not afraid.

The next morning when she went to her front door, she was startled to see the three criminals lying at her door steps.

One of them explained, "We know doctor go. We stay here so no harm come to you".

So this is how 'dangerous men' responded to an act of love.

So my thought of today: Never judge someone you don't know, then you will never give yourself time and opportunity to learn to love them'.

Decisions

I've loved Paulo Coelho the first time I lay eyes on his books. Something drew me to him a few years ago when I was very down. The man writes with so much passion in his heart. I wish I could spend just an hour having a conversation about life and love with him.

Sometimes I think it is I who make life difficult for myself with so much expectation especially wanting things that are not meant for me. I need to learned to let go off things/people that I can't have and focus just on me and making me happy and contented. It should be all about me and just me.

I remember reading Coelho's words of wisdom:

Whenever we need to make a very important decision, it is best to trust our instincts because reason usually tries to remove us, from our dream, saying that the time is not yet right.
Reason is afraid of defeat, but intuition enjoys life and its challenges.

The book

Have you ever received a gift from someone you were actually angry with?

A couple of weeks ago, someone who I was actually angry with gave me a gift. A book.
I was actually taken aback by this gift especially from this person.
Maybe this person was looking for forgiveness and knew that more good can come from my friendship so he decided to find a way to mend things with me.
So I accepted the gift and the kindness shown to me and let go off my anger towards this person. Whether this was the right think to do or not...it doesn't really matter as long in my heart; it felt good.

Now this person really knows me well enough to know that I love books so I ask myself how can I continue to fester anger in my heart for this person who actually found a way to touch my heart in a small way.

It is a little book with interesting insights...and how we should look at life.

In the introductory pages, it states:

You will meet many strange and wonderful characters in these pages- from the lofty wisdom of Lao Tzu to the often ridiculous metaphors of Chuang Tzu to the down-to-earth tales of Lien Tzu.

In between, you will meet hunchbacks, cripples, lords and servants, wise sages, and foolish seekers after the Truth. But pay attention, you may even meet yourself here.

I can't wait to see what's in store for me...

God Bless the Broken Road

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

Now I'm just rollin' home into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road that led me straight to you

Do Unto Others...

Do Unto Others As You Would Have Them Do Unto You....Love begets Love...Hate begets Hate!

If you want the world to treat you well, you have to treat it well first. Have you ever notice that when you smile at anyone even a stranger, you will most likely receive a smile in return. Such is the case with love, kindness, generosity...you always get what you give out to the world.
Always be polite, kind, never hurt anyone and always tell the truth...it's hard to live by such principles but it's a manner of wanting to change for the better.

Life will always treat you exactly the way you like it to. So challenge yourself..to do unto others as you would have them do unto you.

To stop

I woke up all excited for the day, then some people just spoils it for you. Sometimes I think that no matter how much you try to help someone by putting yourself out there, it is never enough and you end up being hurt.

Some people just can't be help. There is no point in caring and trying to make a difference in their lives cos they don't really care. So why should you for that matter. My precise feeling.

So it's better not to even care. Never have expectation on someone cos they will end up disappointing you.

So my lesson for the day: to stop.